"If it's really and truly not the person you are currently with then why are you with them and why aren't you with the person you are thinking of?"

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BETTER THAN ME
Artist: Hinder

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I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be

I told myself I wouldn't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room

I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend that I won't think about you when I'm older

Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)

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"Everyone loses someone in their life whether its someone who sat next to you on the bus, who crossed you in the street, who sold you the clothes you're wearing now...it could be anyone, even if you've never talked to them you've lost them somehow.

Friday I attended a funeral for a girl I briefly had a relationship with years ago.

We briefly passed through each other's lives and then as quickly it started went our separate ways.

It got me to thinking.

Death isn’t fair; it ends the joy and happiness of a life.

Some people may think that on the contrary Death is a way out.

A way out of suffering and pain, a way out of embarrassment, misery, a way out of a lousy lifestyle.

Life gives you many chances to stop inner pains and sufferings.

Life gives you a chance to start new sometimes and make a difference.

The one thing to be careful about is how slowly your actions go.

Sometimes there isn’t enough time to do a whole lot in life and it isn’t because you wanted it that way.

Life begins and ends but sometimes it ends sooner then expected.

"If I die today I would have barely accomplished anything"

I'm sure most people have thought of that.

Of not being able to do everything you wanted to do, not having enough time.

Not being able to say everything you feel.

Don’t wait to tell someone how you feel, or that you’re sorry or that you made a mistake letting them go or to do something you've always wanted to do.

Death could come now for all you know.

There is no use in waiting because you might not get the chance.

Harriet Beecher Stowe once said:

"The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone."

It’s never too early to say how you feel but it can always be too late.

The most things people regret in life are the words or feelings they waited too long to express.

There are so many things I wish I could have said to her long ago.

So many feelings I probably could have expressed but now it’s too late.

I can’t do anything about it, no one can do anything about it.

I guess the only thing we can really do is pray.

Pray for the loved ones we have lost in our lives.

Pray for the ones we have lost that we don’t know well enough to call our loved ones.

Pray that we have the chance to say everything that we want to say before life runs out.

Pray that we accomplish everything we've wanted to accomplish.

Pray that we don’t have sufferings or pain or misery.

Pray we live a happy life with many memories that leave with us.

Pray that we don’t have any regrets.

Anyway I just wanted to note her passing.

The item below wasn’t written with her in mind, it was written last year for someone else who I cared about and now no longer wants me in her life.

I don’t blame her but still miss her and wish her well.

I’m sorry that I never told her these things but here they are now not that it matters much now....I only wish it would."

Bye.

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I’M SORRY…
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I’m sorry for all the things I put you through before you left and what I’m putting you through now.

I’m sorry for the fights, the hatred, the guilt, the doubts and the fear.

I put you through so much in the little time that we had together.

I’m sorry I never appreciated the time we had, until you left.

I'm sorry for not telling you that I loved you every second of every day or for loving you too much or not enough.

I’m sorry for not being there when you needed me.

I’m sorry for not supporting you enough.

I’m sorry for not being strong enough.

I'm sorry I wasn't good enough.

I’m sorry for being so selfish when it come to us.

I'm sorry for everything that I did or that I did not do.

I'm sorry for the person I am.

I’m sorry for not being a better person.

I’m sorry that I couldn’t make you proud of me.

I’m sorry for you being embarrassed to be with me.

I’m sorry that I couldn’t be the one that you could see yourself growing old with.

I'm also sorry for being the one that you fell in love with and for not being someone better than I.

I'm sorry for the times I made you doubt me.

I'm sorry for not spending the time I should have with you.

I'm sorry for the nights we didn't spend together.

I'm sorry for all the times I didn't hold you.

I'm sorry for the kisses I neglected.

I’m sorry for not finding the words to say all this when it mattered, not now when it will never make a difference.

I’m sorry that I was so easy to walk away from.

I'm sorry that I was so easy to replace.

I'm sorry I couldn't find the words to make you stay.

I'm sorry I couldn't love you enough to stop you walking away.

I’m sorry we don’t talk.

I’m sorry we don’t see each other anymore.

I just hope you have someone better than I, and maybe someday forgive me for not being the one you needed and wanted me to be.

I’m just sorry.