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IT’S NOT YOU IT’S ME…
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It is frustrating when you want so badly to give your heart to someone.

You want HER to be the one to keep it and protect it and you are so sure of it.

And she retorts along the lines of:

"Why? I am just a normal girl. I am fucked up. I could make a list of all the reasons I needed out of our relationship. I just need to run away from this."

She needs a reality check if she thinks I am so ignorant not to hear the cliché' "It is not you, it's me"  break up excuse.

I got it.

I wonder if she will think of me in a month from now.

Maybe one day when she is eating dinner alone.

Or after cocktails at a bar while she is talking to the third simple, rich prick of the night and maybe she will wonder what I am doing.

Maybe it will be when she gets a new boyfriend eventually and he doesn’t make her laugh like I do, or makes her blush when he looks at her.

I will think of her whenever I am lying next to whoever that new person will be in the future and I get out of bed and nobody pulls me back in for kisses.

Yes she is a normal girl.

She has flaws.

Just like I do.

She just needs to realize that LOVE is when you see someone’s flaws and accept them as is.

But I guess the flaw that I can’t accept is that she wants to run away from me.

Heartbreaking?

Yes.

But I have an AMAZING ability to overcome the people that hurt me the worst.

So I will get over it - and maybe better myself.

And she will get over it too... but I worry about where she will end up.