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Monday, Sept. 11, 2006 - 3:38 a.m.
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"There are things in this world that make me cry;"
"There are things in my head I dare not touch;"
"There are reasons why I don’t;"
"There are too many questions;"
"There are not enough answers;"
"There are never enough answers;"
"These are just words;"
"They
are here for you..."
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"Well
ladies and gentlemen, it's official. As of last Saturday and finalized by the
Saturday just gone, I'm single once again. I don't know what's
wrong with me that I cannot sustain a healthy, committed relationship where I am
loved by another.
Do you want to know something? I
think I have finally come to the realization that I am destined to be alone and
you know what?? It's actually not so bad.
Maybe I've just grown so
used to it that it's a question of mind over matter -- "I no longer mind, cause
it no longer matters". Maybe I've just grown too old and too cold. Maybe I've just built a wall around my heart where nothing can hurt it or me anymore. Maybe I'm just numb and feel nothing. I don't know. Or maybe my realization just has allowed me to
begin to achieve some kind of peace with it all. I don't know how to explain it.
What the
future holds for the two of us, who knows? All I know is that I miss and will miss her tremendously.
Goodbye my Princess Ballerina and thank
you for being in my heart. I'm sorry I couldn't be all that you wanted and
deserved and I'm sorry that I failed you."
Anyway, Cya next
time. Damien *************************************************************** Theresa Osborne:
And you'll just forget about me? Garrett
Blake:
Every day.
Robin Wright Penn & Kevin Costner ***************************************************************
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
You touched my heart you touched my soul. Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my lover. *************************************************************** It isn’t a single reason as to the reason why I feel the way that I do. It is a multitude of things and a variety of reasons. It is for the patience that you exude, even after listening to me talk non-stop about nothing in particular. You not only listen to my mindless chatter, but you encourage it and actually listen to everything that I have to say. It is for the way that you make me laugh, even when I don’t feel like laughing. You bring joy into my world and into my life. The smiles that you give to me so unselfishly cannot be counted upon a single hand or two. They are immeasurable and immense. The smiles in which you pull from me come easy and natural, as if you have made me smile for my entire lifetime. It is for the way that you have gotten to know me. You sense my moods long before a word is uttered from me. You sense things about me. It is the best feeling in the world to know that someone enjoys me that much and has taken the time to really get to know me. Bad things and all. You process the information that you pick up from our conversations and memorize them. It amazes me the things that you remember about me. You recall them at the drop of a hat, without warning. It is a very endearing and heart-warming thing for you to do. It is because of the levels that you allow me to reach. When I feel that I cannot go any higher, you push me to reach even further than what is within my grasp. The sound of your voice or a single thought of you takes me to those heights. It is only with you am I allowed to reach those levels of pure passion. It is because you push me and do not allow me to give up my dreams and hopes. You help me keep them alive in ways that no one has done before. You
push me and encourage me to continue even when I think I'm not good enough. Gentle prodding from you is much appreciated and most welcome. It is because of the way that you, bit by bit, allow me inside of your world. The world that I see is beautiful and full of care. I could never find anything like this in any other place than with you. It is because of your sense of humour that never fails to make me laugh and smile. It is because of the gentle and loving heart that you possess. It is because of your soul that is, by far, the most beautiful that I have ever seen. When I think of how you have let me into your heart and into your life, I get a lump in my throat. It makes me want to weep. Not out of sadness, but out of pure joy. It is because the more time that I spend with you, the more that I want. There aren’t enough hours in the day for you, for us. If I could I would add hours to the day just so that I could enjoy you more. It is because... you fit me...like a piece of a puzzle that has been missing for my entire life. It is because you are you, and I love you. ISFJs are committed to their relationships.
They have very intense feelings, which is not immediately apparent to others because they tend to hold things inside themselves without expressing them, unless they have a strong reason to do so.
Their intensity of feeling makes their intimate relationship their first priority in life, with the possible exception of God.
They seek monogamous, lifelong commitments, and can be depended upon to be faithful and loyal to their mates once they have made a commitment.
ISFJs have a difficult time leaving a relationship which is bad, or accepting that a relationship is over.
They tend to put all of the blame on their own shoulders, and wonder what they should have done to make things work out.
If they have been loyal to their vows and have done their duties, they will be at a complete loss as to what went wrong, and will have great difficulty accepting the end.
They are "true blue" lovers, and may even remain faithful to their deceased partners.
ISFJs tend to be very selfless, and to put the needs of others well before their own needs.
This may backfire on them, if they get into a situation in which they are taken advantage of, and do not have a good outlet for their strong emotions.
In this kind of situation, the ISFJ might bottle up their feelings inside them, and form strong resentments against others.
The ISFJ should work on recognizing their own needs, and place some importance on meeting them, rather than always putting the needs of others first.
After all, if you can't take care of yourself, how can take care of someone else?
Sexually, the ISFJ sees intimacy as a tangible way of strengthening their relationship bonds.
They also see as something of a duty, and are likely to be more interested in serving their partner than in their own personal satisfaction.
Although the ISFJ is not likely to be very wordy about expressing their love and affection, they're likely to do so through their deeds, and will deeply value their partner's responding affirmations.
The ISFJ is very warm and selfless.
They'll put forth tremendous amounts of energy and time into doing what they feel is
their duty.
What makes them feel best about themselves is when others show them their appreciation of the ISFJ.
Consequently, the best gift that the partner of an ISFJ can give them is the expression of their love and appreciation.
ISFJs have difficulty with conflict situations, and would much prefer to just sweep things under the rug.
Sometimes facing a conflict situation helps to resolve it, and the ISFJ should realize that the world will not end if they face the conflict, and express how they feel about it.
A conflict situation is not necessarily a "problem" which needs to be gotten rid of, and it is also not necessarily the ISFJ's fault.
It's a common problem for ISFJ's to not express their feelings until pushed to some limit, after which they explode in anger and say things which they later feel they shouldn't have said.
These kinds of outbursts can be reduced by expressing their feelings on a more regular basis, rather than keeping them pent up inside.
In general, the ISFJ is usually a traditional, family-minded individual who places the comfort of their mates and families as their first priority in life.
They're great for providing for everyday basic needs, and have a depth of caring which is very unusual, and not found in most types.
They highly invested in the health of their relationships, and will work very hard to make things run smoothly.
They are dependable and affectionate lovers.
Although two well-developed individuals of any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, the ISFJ's natural partner is the ESTP, or the ESFP.
What is your personality type and do you match with the ISFJ? Take my other quiz: "The Ultra Ultimate Personality Test."
I was asked how could I love her and I remembered
that I had written this and had read it to her over the phone a long time ago but never gave it to her. She obviously has
forgotten and for lack of something else to post and maybe just to say goodbye to the
relationship, here it is for the world to see. They are I suppose just
words written by a fool who thought he was in love and was loved in return.
QUOTE FOR THE DAY:
-- Message In A Bottle
GOODBYE MY LOVER
Artist: James Blunt
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Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
BECAUSE…
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