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Monday, Jun. 12, 2006 - 1:30 a.m.

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"There are things in this world that make me cry;"

"There are things in my head I dare not touch;"

"There are reasons why I don’t;"

"There are too many questions;"

"There are not enough answers;"

"There are never enough answers;"

"These are just words;"

"They are here for you..."

Newest 5 Entries:

My Suicide... (Updated) - Sunday, Jun. 17, 2007
I'm Sorry... - Sunday, Apr. 22, 2007
I Give Up... - Monday, Nov. 27, 2006
Questioning My Existence... - Monday, Nov. 20, 2006
Sometimes... - Monday, Nov. 13, 2006

QUOTE FOR THE DAY:

“A hero is a man who does what he can.”

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TIRED
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I am tired.

I am just so tired.
I am tired of being the Hero.
Always being the one that everyone turns to when things go wrong.
Of always having to be the strong one, the voice that will not be ignored.
I am weary of wearing a cape.
Never being able to be strong or brave enough to face all my own demons.
But always being the one people hide behind when they can’t face theirs.
Never being loud enough when I need my voice to be heard for me.
I am tired of being the devoted son.
Have you any idea as to how much of myself I give to my loved ones?
I don't think that they've invented a way to measure that as yet.
And I'm tired of waiting for that too.
I am fatigued of being so darn selfish!
Look at me!
I am complaining about my problems again.
I don't have any problems.
I am just fine.
I am always just fine.
And I am tired of it.
Being the "good-guy" has drained me.
The constant smiling and willingness to help others.
It is wearing me thin and for what?
A pat on the back that I'm tired of waiting for?
I am tired of being the villain.
Why must I always be the one to start the fight?
Why can't people just let me have my space?
I am tired of having people in my face day in and day out.
And I am tired of hearing them talk.
Always telling me what I should and should not do.
Talking about me "giving it my all" when that's exactly what I am doing.
Giving 100% of myself.
And you know what?
I am tired of giving.
Tired of living.
Tired of this incessant need not to cry.
Tired of the truth and I’m tired of the lies.
Tired of everything I see.
Tired of running away.
Tired of the games people play.
Tired of being just me,
I am tired.
I am just so damn tired.

The Asserter

You chose AY - your Enneagram type is EIGHT.

"I Must Be Strong"

Asserters are direct, self-reliant, self-confident, and protective.

How to Get Along with Me

Stand up for yourself... and me.
Be confident, strong, and direct.
Don't gossip about me or betray my trust.
Be vulnerable and share your feelings. See and acknowledge my tender, vulnerable side.
Give me space to be alone.
Acknowledge the contributions I make, but don't flatter me.
I often speak in an assertive way. Don't automatically assume it's a personal attack.
When I scream, curse, and stomp around, try to remember that's just the way I am.

What I Like About Being a Eight

being independent and self-reliant
being able to take charge and meet challenges head on
being courageous, straightforward, and honest
getting all the enjoyment I can out of life
supporting, empowering, and protecting those close to me
upholding just causes

What's Hard About Being a Eight

overwhelming people with my bluntness; scaring them away when I don't intend to
being restless and impatient with others' incompetence
sticking my neck out for people and receiving no appreciation for it
never forgetting injuries or injustices
putting too much pressure on myself
getting high blood pressure when people don't obey the rules or when things don't go right

Eights as Children Often

are independent; have an inner strength and a fighting spirit
are sometimes loners
seize control so they won't be controlled
figure out others' weaknesses
attack verbally or physically when provoked
take charge in the family because they perceive themselves as the strongest, or grow up in difficult or abusive surroundings

Eights as Parents

are often loyal, caring, involved, and devoted
are sometimes overprotective
can be demanding, controlling, and rigid

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele
The Enneagram Made Easy
Discover the 9 Types of People
HarperSanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

You are not completely happy with the result?!
You chose AY
Would you rather have chosen: BY (FOUR) CY (SIX) AX (SEVEN) AZ (THREE)

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on ABC

You scored higher than 99% on XYZ
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