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LAST TO KNOW
Artist: Human Nature

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Where does love go
When you're not in love?
How does it feel when nobody wants it?
Tell me, does it float around
Like a little lost cloud
When a heart is not it's home?

What does love do
When it's not being used?
Feeling like it just don't belong
Tell me, is it laying awake in the middle of the night
Just thinking 'bout what went wrong?
'Cause when I look in your eyes
It's just not there
When I hunger for affection
The cupboard is bear
I don't know why I keep holding on
When love's got the message and it's already gone

Why am I always the last to know?
Tell me why is it always me alone
Still dancing when the party's over
Why am I always the last to see?
Just a fool who believes you're still in love with me
Even love can see it's over
I'm always the last to know

What do I do
'Till I'm back on my feet?
Do I hang around and try to pretend
That I'm really over you
And it won't take long
'Till love says it's my turn again?

'Cause when I look in your eyes
It's just not there
When I hunger for affection
The cupboard is bear
I don't know why I keep holding on
When love's got the message and it's already gone

Why am I always the last to know?
Tell me why is it always me alone
Still dancing when the party's over
Why am I always the last to see?
Just a fool who believes you're still in love with me
Even love can see it's over
I'm always the last to know

The next time I fall
I'll be taking my time
To find out if her heart is mine

Why am I always the last to know?
Tell me why is it always me alone
Still dancing when the party's over
Why am I always the last to see?
Just a fool who believes you're still in love with me
Even love can see it's over
I'm always the last to know

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BLINDNESS
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It seems that everything I see nowadays brings forth a kind of disgust inside of me.

Every empty smile I see on the street and every blade of grass in a field make me choke with spite.

It seems that every place the light hits pains me to the very core.

Sometimes I wish the world was dark or that I was blind so I would not have to see the leaves in the wind or the birds in the sky.

I wish I didn't have to see those joyous things because they remind me of the hurt I feel inside.

I wish I could see these things and smile, however, seeing children playing or couples romancing drops me to my knees and makes me want to weep like a child.

The want for my innocent childhood returns to me and also the reminders of the pain love has brought can be a large load for a weakened soul to bear.

In every place and in every face I see some hidden torment from my past.

Every face that grins at me seems to be an evil grin and every pair of eyes that looks my way seems to hold some deadly secret that could shake me to my very core.

Sometimes, I wish I were blind so much that I want to gouge out my eyes so never to see the light of day again.

I want my whole world to be black so what I see will mirror what is held in the deepest parts of my soul.

Alas, every grain of sand and every speckle of dust in the wind will hurt me more as it mirrors my past instead of myself.

There is no hope for escape when everything I see appears to be a thorn from days and years gone by.

 

The Damned Fool 35% variable 1

Relationships for you can be explosive and dangerous.  Love hasn't been kind has it?  You should search libraries or churches for love...something a little more low-key. And don't feel bad, I am exactly the same way.

 

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on variable 1

Link: The Fool For Love Test written by RED741 on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test