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NEWEST ************************** Monday, Nov. 14, 2005 - 1:56 a.m. ************************** "There are things in this world that make me cry;" "There are things in my head I dare not touch;" "There are reasons why I don’t;" "There are too many questions;" "There are not enough answers;" "There are never enough answers;" "These are just words;" "They
are here for you..."
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"I'm a little bit busy at the moment and I haven't reposted for a long
time. I came across this one and it brought a smile to my face which
lately seems to be missing. Enjoy." "To
love someone is to understand each other, to laugh together, to smile with your
heart and to trust one another. One important thing is to let each other go if
you can't do this." *********************************************************** ***********************************************************
My head's full of thought *********************************************************** YOU ARE SPECIAL *********************************************************** To the man who makes me feel so special, There is so much I want to tell you, a lot has been running through my head lately. I've been having trouble putting my thoughts into words so you will have to bare with me through this. Life is so unpredictable. Changes always come along, in big or small ways. I
don't know what happened that this sudden change has turned my world upside down. I
don't know exactly what it is, it just hit me, but there is something really special about you. It might be all the things I see on the surface, the things that everyone notices and admires about you, qualities, capabilities and a wonderful smile obviously connected to a warm and loving heart; the way you make me laugh, out loud with the crazy things you do sometimes. All these
things and more set you apart from every other man I have met before. But it may also be the big things ... the person you really are, the person you try to hide from the world, the person you are when there is just the two of us, the person that I hope to get to know even more someday, if you will let me. It might also be the little things ... the way you walk, the way you move and all your actions, what you say and what you don’t have to say. The way you make me feel so protected, so safe when we are out together and even more so when we are alone. No one has made me feel that way before. I
receive so much joy just being able to see that smile in your eyes, those eyes, so intense, so blue, yet with a hint of sadness hiding behind them, threatening to come to the surface at a moments notice. I
want to find out what is the source of that sadness that you so desperately try to hide. If I ever figure out the magic that makes you so special, I'd probably find out that it's a combination of all these things. You are a rare combination of so many special things. You are really amazing. I have never, nor did I ever expect, to meet a man like you. I
so admire your voracious appetite for life, I admire your strength and courage, your intelligence, your take-charge-the-world-be-damned attitude. I admire your adventurous and energetic spirit. I
think of you as a pioneer of a sort, enthusiastic, confident, dynamic and quick-witted. I
understand that your immense energy makes you aggressive and restless at times, headstrong and quick tempered, but I love that too. I
love that which is essential to your nature -- straightforwardness, no middle-ground. I
love how loyal you are to the people you care about. I
love the warrior within you. The one that will fight for the things and the people you care for, without regard for yourself. I was sitting here wishing I had those attributes when I realized, that's the reason you were put in my life. Inside of me there is a place where my sweetest dreams reside, where my highest hopes are kept alive, where my deepest feelings are felt and where my favourite memories are safe and warm. I
find that you're on my mind more often than any other thought. Sometimes I bring you there purposely just to make my day brighter. But more often, you surprise me and find your own ways into my thoughts. There are even times when I awaken, I realize that you've been a part of my dreams. Then during the day, when my imagination is free to run, it takes me into your arms and allows me to linger there knowing there's nothing I'd rather do. I
know my thoughts are only reflecting the loving hopes of my heart because whenever they wander, they always take me to you. Only the most special things in my world get to come inside my heart and stay. And now, I realize how deeply my life has been touched by you. I thought I’d just let you know. With thanks and love, ****
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