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QUOTE FOR THE DAY:

"It's true we don't know what we've got until its gone, but we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives."

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Past Pains Revealed
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Hearing about someone’s past pains from a time when you were seemingly clueless to it all saddens me to an unknown depth.

These are the same words which I’ve heard before, but didn’t understand or catch hidden meanings.

Now that I understand and see the messages she was screaming out, I am left speechless.

I am not sure how to explain that period of my life, nor do I know the proper way of apologizing for things that exist in the past.

Even if I could find the words to apologize, would the apology even matter now?

After all, those things happened, and we’ve both changed from that time.

I don’t know the answer, or the words.

If I would’ve understood then what I understand now, things may have been different.

Instead of being at this point in our lives, we may be a year further into our lives together.

I realize that makes no sense whatsoever.

I didn’t know she was hurting like she was then.

I do now, and I am filled with sadness for not opening my eyes sooner and for not seeing the signs that were displayed before me.

As she said "...things happen for a reason..."

I suppose those events did happen for a reason, and it was the cause of the closeness and familiarity that we now feel.

Perhaps, without that time, we would not have cemented our relationship.

Still, hearing those things makes me wish that she never went through the pain that she did.

I wish she had never felt the hurt, which seemed to haunt her and plague her.

I wish I would have understood more clearly just how much she cared for me.

"All of that made me appreciate even more what we’ve found. I knew it would be this good, and you were worth the wait" she tells me.

While those words are dripping with romantic overtures and, admittedly, make me melt, I still wish I would’ve taken time to read between the lines, to see what was in front of me and to swallow my fears so that I could bathe in what she had to offer.

If I would’ve, she wouldn’t have felt what she did.

I realize that those things are in the past, and now we are at a place we both longed to be, but it pains me to know that I, in my stubbornness and fear, put her through the chase.

Hearing the words of her past made me see how much she hurt then.

It made me see how much of a fool I was, for not falling into her and for believing in things I should not have believed in.

Hearing her words also made me appreciate, all the more, what we have.

It’s made me appreciate her drive, determination and relentless pursuit of what she wanted most of all...

Me…

 
People See Boldness In Your Eyes. 

You aren't afraid to do what you think is right and you stand up for what you believe in. You don't worry about the what-if's. 

You also like being the centre of attention at times and you like to stick out. But be warned...some people may find you annoying for several reasons.