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NEWEST ************************** Friday, Apr. 08, 2005 - 3:06 a.m. ************************** "There are things in this world that make me cry;" "There are things in my head I dare not touch;" "There are reasons why I don’t;" "There are too many questions;" "There are not enough answers;" "There are never enough answers;" "These are just words;" "They
are here for you..."
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"I've been a bit busy, so I have decided to repost another entry
before the weekend."
************************************************************ "If
I could have one lifetime wish, one wish that would come true, I'd pray to God
with all my heart, for yesterday...and you!" ************************************************************ If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today? ************************************************************ I've had a new revelation of life that I should share with you. It's my new concept of 'THE ONE.' People are always talking about this magical person that you meet one day who suddenly changes your view of life and love. For a long time, due largely in part to the media I believed,
'the one' is someone who never hurts you, yells at you, leaves their socks on the floor, or even goes to the bathroom. It takes a long time to get rid of this romanticized version of reality.. a painfully long time of discarding otherwise good people on a truly fairy-tale-esque basis. However, this concept that I've discovered is my new definition of
'the one.' You date many people throughout your life, with varying degrees of success. You meet a few people that you connect with enough to date, and an even smaller amount of people that you fall in love with. But think of the few people that you told you loved, and how much you cared for them at the time. You can't imagine a time when that feeling will stop, but eventually it does, and that person just becomes
'another guy' or 'another girl'
that you happened to date. As you get older, you find the list growing long of people you were madly in love with that you
WANTED it to work with, but it didn't. But it only takes one person out of all of them for you to be happy. In the end, there's one person who
DOESN'T get added to the list of failed loves... it's just a person that you happened to make it work
with... ...That’s all. THAT's
'the one.' You may have felt much before, maybe even too much. But now there
is nothing or hardly anything left of the emotions.
Emotional pain is probably
the cause of this, but it's not like you care. To you everything is meaningless,
life is without flavour and you wonder when it will end.
Though you hardly feel
sad, you aren't seen happy so often either. Perhaps someday you will be brought
back to life.
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