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WOULD YOU NOTICE??...
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I wonder if you would notice if I were no longer around?

I wonder if the absence of my thoughts and words would be felt, or whether it would bring forth a sense of relief?

If your soul and heart would relax knowing that my words of love, my silliness at life were no longer heard by your ears.

Would you miss the sound of my voice and the sound of my laughter filling your senses?

It’s a rather odd thing to think about, I know.

I am not a typical person, this you know to be true.

But I wonder...

Would you find happiness and joy, if I were to slowly disappear, never to be found again?

Would the thoughts and emotions that I have heaped upon you be missed?

Would they leave an empty void in your life?

Could you imagine not seeing me ever again?

I often have thoughts of completely disappearing, so that no one may find me ever again.

I think there are a few people out there that were in my life who would actually welcome it.

I think about retreating inside of myself and hide away with my own emotions and thoughts.

A life of seclusion seems fitting for a person like me.

I have too many thoughts, which taint my heart.

I have too many dreams which haunt who I am.

Simply dealing with myself would be easier than revealing those thoughts or sharing the emotions.

To share those things leave me vulnerable and bare, capable of receiving slaughtering and Earth shaking pain.

Would it not be best to hide within myself, instead of ever facing that level of pain that permanently rips away a layer of who I have struggled to become?

I need too much for my sense of well-being and comfort.

I need to be reminded that I am cared about and loved.

I need to know that I am important to someone.

I need to connect with my partner.

Need, need, need.

It is these needs that make me weak.

It is these needs that make me, but a mere mortal.

It is these needs that dictate how my life is run, or how my days are spent.

It is these needs which make me wish to run and hide.

If I silently need these things, there are no feelings of disappointment at not finding them.

There are no feelings of hopelessness when I cannot acquire them.

Perhaps I should simply vanish inside of myself.

Maybe I should disappear without a trace.

Would it not make life easier for some people, easier for me?

But I wonder if it would matter.

I wonder if it would make me appear weaker than simply stating my needs?

I am supposed to be strong, but sometimes I am not.

I am weak.

I am weak because I need.

I need to know that I am wanted, needed and cared for.

So, if I were to disappear, would you notice?

It was meant to be, and you knew it. 

If you're both not together now... GO BACK before it's too late. 

There was something there that defied description...
and there WAS something missing but nothing that was insurmountable that you couldn't overcome together.